I'm glad I got my mom's dominant personality or else I would have succumbed to these bad thoughts months ago. As of right now I'm dealing with them as best I can and hoping I can outlast them. I've only lost it once in the last two years, so I think I'll be alright. Others haven't been so lucky, though. A close friend of mine lost it and went too far to come back. I'm sorry for that. He was a good kid.